friday. saturday. and now today. ive been disappointed. when someone says they are going to do something. i expect it to be done. 'ill call around 10-11am.' doesnt mean to send a text at 315pm saying 'had some drama. call later.' people can be disappointing. i knew this. for 1 reason or another i continue to have hope ill be surprised. and not be disappointed. rarely happens. sad but true.
and steven is finding this out just how disappointing people can be while here in the big shitty for the weekend. and what a shitty it is. a day of craptastic weather. and people with craptastic attitudes.
i take heart for i know there are true people out there. ive seen them. touched them. ive even kissed a couple. and im blessed to have a good many in my life. like the beautiful twin girls i had the pleasure of babysitting yesterday there are many out there who do not disappoint. but there seems to be an overwhelming and ever increasing number of people. that for 1 reason or another. disappoint. sad but true.
words of wisdom
Sunday, May 18, 2008
disappointment
Saturday, May 17, 2008
Friday, May 16, 2008
mercy
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
oh. my. goddess.
whitney. the first full figure model to make it to the top 3. is now the first full figure model to win americas next top model. you go girl!
hoya blossoms
waahoo! my hoya bloomed sometime during the night. and unlike gabriel who woke up to spiders. i woke up to teeny tiny pink and white star shaped blossoms. definitely worth the wait.
holy (fucking) cow
now that is a lot of heifer. a heifer of a heifer. if you don’t mind. and so beautiful and statuesque. ive got bovine in my blood thanks to my momma and family who raised holsteins back in the day. and back home. though and she is as impressed by this friesian bullock as i am claiming 'your papa would get a kick out this heifer.' i definitely think he would too. named chilli he currently weighs in at over a ton and stands 6 feet 6 inches tall and 6 feet 7 inches long. this is a big boy even for a bovine but its caretaker says he ‘…is quite lean and not as fat as some of his companions…he doesnt eat that much and his feet and head are in proportion. he is just very large.’ understatement i think.
and chilli? whats up with that name? oh that sick british humor! and would you believe there is a bigger bovine in italy named fiorino. but only an inch. and chilli is still growing. you go boy. cowabunga dude.
get my cramp on
ive had some random discomfort this morning. not pain per se but it sure doesn’t feel good. my body has been cramping. not ‘lady cramps’ but cramps in other parts of my body. hands. back. arms. feet. and legs.
my left and right hands have cramped and curled into claws twice this morning. and ive had to physically pry my fingers out of this curling cramp to get my hand to open back up. i couldn’t do it on my own volition. and when i stretch the muscles in my back and arms they clench so tightly i can see the hardened muscle beneath the skin. making release not always possible or comfortable.
this cramping tends to happen after i get out of the bath. and usually happens in my feet and legs though sometimes it travels to other areas. the theory being that while soaking in the hot bath muscles are loosened and relaxed but when i get out of the tub they quickly cool. contracting and constricting. plausible and possible. the doctors ive asked about this situation have told me i just need to stretch before and after the bath to help keep my muscles loose. but dammit. im already loose. bendy. and flexible. im a yogi. and stretch all day long. before and after workouts as well as throughout the day. even upon waking and before i go to bed. but now the thing prescribed to help is leading to more discomfort.
my soul sister says i should go see my medicine man but ive spoken to 2 of them about this predicament. i relish the idea of going to the doctor only for him to tell me that i need to stretch more. or worse. either no suggestions at all or the passing on of my case to a specialist of sorts. but im going to see how the day goes. how many times can i claw up before i get fed up and pissed off. time will tell. but i promised id go see him if it does it worse.
and i always try to keep my promises. cramps or not. but for now ive 'gone cramping'.
tiny yellow spiders
this is what my roommate awoke to. of course he had to look out the window before he saw them. and grabbed this shot. and he said 'so cute. its like mutha fuckin charlottes web. all the little one. one by one grabbing little silken ropes and flying from the nest.' oh. my. goddess. and he now says they are coming in through the window on a tiny rope made out of web. the itsy bitsy spiders is right! im glad im here in this austere environment. i did not just say that.
i love waking up in the morning with moxie curled up next to me. and the sound of 1 of my cats hurling.
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
miss dee if you please
from the mind of natalie dee. brilliant. and a special thanks to michele for exposing me to this womans simple hilarity.
oh. my. goddess.
for the past 9 minutes they have been tested the fire alarm system. as the clarion call of the alarm resounds through the austere space and a bright white light flashes into my brain a deep disembodied voice assures us this is only a test.
'attention. please disregard all the sirens. bells. whistles. and flashing lights. we will be testing the fire and emergency systems for the next few minutes. this is only a test. thank you.'
no thank you.
update - and now they are 'upgrading' the alarm system. and we are to continue to 'ignore' the sirens. bells. whistles. and flashing lights. you know they were able to be ignored would these things be used in case of an emergency? i think not.
sexy boy tuesday
its tuesday you bastards! absotuesdaylutely! and time for a veritable smorgasbord of sexy boys. these fine young men were selected for no particular reason. and yet for very good reasons which are quite apparent. especially if you have eyes. it is not only hard to pick just 1. so why should i? its also hard not to get hard when strolling through my folder of sexy boys. but that is another story. i just cant stop staring. or drooling for that matter. enjoy the buffet of buff and beautiful boys while i grab a towel. for my drool! just please leave a couple for me.
a blonde ambition
‘you look so great with short hair. humor us readers and get your hair short and blond for summer.’ this was an anonymous comment from yesterdays memory lane monday brief. short and blonde for summer? anything is possible.
it is summer. or soon will be after all. change is in the air. or is that just all the fucking pollen? my friend jose suggested i keep the locks long for summer. a buff and bronzed tarzan anyone? but in the fall cut it short. i don’t know but i do know that change is good. at least i keep being told change is good. im sure if i hear it enough it will finally sink in. and ive not changed much about my hair over the past few years. not since i took that fateful first step down the path of the long hairs.
but i wonder if long hair would hamper and hinder my search for work? or landing a job? finding a new employment opportunity might be easier with shorter hair. right? i don’t know since its not only been a while since i went looking for work but its been years since i had short hair. i don’t know if hair is a factor. or not.though if i get it cut what will the boys hold on to? what will i pull or mess with? how will i perform the charlies angel slow motion hair flip?
but hair does grow back. usually. what do you think? and if you want vote in the poll at right.
